recently I've been having trouble remembering things. Feelings of detachment and self-sabotage have been present. Tiredness and lack of motivation are there as well. My head feels foggy and heavy. But sometimes all of that goes away and I feel so, so happy for no reason. I feel like something's wrong with my head. I don't really feel stressed or sad.

My imagination is quite violent and dark. Mostly thinking about the death of me, or a loved one or hurt and comfort scenarios constantly.

There was an incident where I happened to walk out of a room with no expression on my face. I could feel myself do it and see what was happening, but I felt nothing. That scares me a lot. I don't like feeling nothing.

This could just be nothing, or it could be something. I don't know.