I also think my husband likes me best when I am hypomanic. But I really don't know where the line between hypomanic and normal start for me. Maybe lack of sleep on meds? But I've had a hard time sleeping my whole life.

As for "ana" he tends to pretend not to see it since mine is different in that I eat normally; it is just normal eating does not cover all the calories I burn through exercise. Though this time it's a little weird. I wanted to be able to keep my weight at a certain number and not go lower. Now I've passed the number and want to gain but feel like I might gain weight too fast, surpass where I want to stop and become fat. In the past, I'd reach the goal and always set another lower goal. I don't know why this time is different. I think a dieticians/nutritionists may be covered by my insurance plan. Since I run out my deductible, it would be free to find a dietician though I'd need one who specializes in eating disorders, not things like weight loss, or controlling your diet for diabetes or another illness. If the insurance covers it, I will put in a call.