Well, for today I'm just done for. The insurance website will say the therapist does ED and then you call and they don't take clients with EDs. Or they have moved, like a 2 hour drive away, but it wasn't updated on the insurance site. I have been at it 1.5 hr. I tried calling my insurance company, and they were having server issues.

The ED is not the most important thing to me right now. Right now, it's stress management (though the ED is very affected by that), panic disorder & BP along with the ED. I don't know, I've been calling the area around the pdoc too and the hospital. I thought the hospital itself might have something, but no. I had figured it would be big enough to. Maybe you need a special code word to get in. IDK, I see my pdoc tomorrow. Maybe he or the front desk might be able to give me a list. If not, I will call the PCP's assistant and ask about it. I am tired of looking at websites. Oh, and there would be some that might work, but they don't take insurance. Ugh!

When I first started therapy when I was in college, I got a therapist who knew I had an ED and other issues, namely depression & anxiety; I had not yet gotten full blown panic disorder too. But she worked on everything. It was not an I'll treat you, but...type situation. Now, that seems to be all there is. I did use one therapist not far from the pdoc clinic a couple years ago who was that way, but I saw her several months, and I never got a connection with her or a feeling that she cared about my problems, just that this was her job, and she was doing it.

IDK, the state may have some low cost resources nearby though I am not going to use their MHMRA program again. The Houston area one was awful, sit around way past your appointment time, see the pdoc 2 minutes, get your tons of meds and go. Maybe they offered counseling, I can't remember. They might have, but I wouldn't have had time to do it especially with such unpredictable wait times since I was a graduate student and an RA/TA. It's not like I could dash off to therapy, know that I would be back in a reasonable time to get some work done in the lab or have to teach a course as well as the courses I was required to take.

I feel like I've been run over by a truck.