I hope you keep staying on track.

I have the purging type anorexia except it's all done through too much exercise. And I don't bother with calories & stuff. After a certain point (and I don't know what that point is in time or miles or anything), I just cross a line where I cannot possibly eat enough to make up for the calorie deficit. It's a weird thing too. If I were purging by throwing up, my husband would notice & his brain would jump right to, "Wow, the ED is acting up. How do we stop this?" But my ED is so weird in that I just do the running in the morning, and the rest of the day, I eat normally. Well, mostly. Lately, I have been stressed, so breakfast & lunch can get iffy.

I ran a lot today. Way too much. Not sure if it's punishing myself for not exercising yesterday or in preparation for the fact I won't be able to exercise much tomorrow morning as I have an appt. with my pdoc. Also, there is a 90% chance of rain tomorrow. I'm not sure if that's all day in general or part of the day.

I've been trying to find therapists, and so many get completely turned off by the ED thing. I try to tell them it is not my biggest problem, dealing with stress is (though that affects the ED a lot), panic disorder too, then the bipolar (especially dissociation), and the ED, but it's like they hear ED and they are done with you.

I am so frustrated with trying to find a therapist. It's like I'm banging my head against the wall again and again. I actually have a stress headache from it.