I'm so sorry that you're having a very hard time finding a therapist. I've been incredibly lucky...out of the (at least) ten therapists I've had appointments with, 2 were people I actually felt a bond with. The rest were...meh...and of those "meh" therapists, 3 ended up being genuinely hurtful to my situation.

It's my understand that if someone is in therapy to do real work, there needs to be a feeling of a close bond with the therapist, because that establishes transference.

I can imagine that having an ED is a hell to live with, as it's something like OCD, in certain ways - OCD being notoriously difficult to treat.

It's dinner time where you are; you're correct. You've done the work today. Try and have a nice evening.