Havent been on here in a while...I'm going to therapy now but I don't trust my therapists or psychiatrists anymore due to bad experiences so I haven't mentioned this to my therapist yet

I stopped cutting a year or so ago after getting group therapy, but recently I started doing it again. I also started doing something I didn't ever do before much more frequently than the cutting, I punch or slap myself very hard in the face repeatedly. It takes a lot of willpower not to take it a few steps further.

I didn't think it hurt me much but I do have TMJ and today it hurt the worse it ever has to chew. I was sore for most of the day. I think that's a bad sign.

Does anyone else punch themselves and how do you usually stop? Feels like I'm fine then all of the sudden I lose it. Trying to breath and punch something else like a pillow. Sometimes it helps.