Hang in there -Astral- please. So many of us have to deal with the b.s of this life and with the mental health system, which is so hard. Try not to feel alienated, stay strong in your spirit, stay safe, try to bring your mind into a positive perspective and just keep battling on. I don't like the idea of your husband abusing you like that, though, but keep fighting. Don't lost the hope -Astral-.