Your situation is not that rare, believe it or not. Often times, an eating disorder can start out as a cry for help or a way to get people "see" that you are struggling. I know that's how my ED started out at least. Problem is, this is a very addicting disease, and before you know it you can't stop. So this is actually a really good thing, you admitting this and reaching out for help. It means you caught this early before it got out of control. As hard as it is, I would be honest with your food journal for your T. And maybe when you give it to him/her, let them know about your fears of not "appearing" to have an ED. I don't think she/he would judge you at all, but rather be happy that you brought it up so you can work on all of this. Good luck!!