I'm trying to find a therapist, but many get turned off by my admitting to an ED. I did go to a therapist who hesitated so much to work with me because of the ED. I had told her all my story, etc., and then she hit me with that. I didn't even highlight the ED in particular, that panic was actually bothering me most, maybe depression too. I tend to be mixed according to the pdoc, but I feel like I spend most of it in depression.