I'm new here and this is my first post. I met with my therapist yesterday to discuss this empty feeling I have always had inside of me. I recently started taking meds and the doctor who prescribed them told me that I suffer from moderate to sever depression and PTSD due to events in my childhood. The PTSD statement stuck with me and I spoke yesterday about it. As began to speak about the stuff that my older, by 9 years, brother did to me. The torture, physical abuse, mental abuse and fear that he inflicted on me. My therapist feels I may be suffering from Complex PTSD which I had never hear of. I read a few papers online and holy **** it is me to a T. What is happening is all of the stuff that I have blocked out for most of my life is all bubbling to the surface. I'm reliving all of it at one and I don't know what to do. The lid is off the bottle and the genie is out and she ain't going back inside. I'm wondering around in a daze and I have no one to talk to about this. I'm also a recovering alcoholic and I have a circle of people who can relate to that, but non of them have gone through this (I've shared most of what I remember with them). My dad was rage filled and took it out on me as a child. My mom is an over bearing depressed nut who used to body shame me. Who can I turn to? What do I do? I feel so alone.