Well, yesterday I went without hitting myself self-harm wise. Now I've hit myself repeatedly this morning. I'm getting bruises all over now.

Sucks a lot. I don't know why I do it. I randomly did it for no reason. I literally woke up and did it for the hell of it. Yet I'm too afraid to tell my therapist tomorrow. I think she will think I'm hiding things from her and that I'm not trustworthy all because I've hidden this from her for so long. I don't know what to say to her. I'm so lost.