(((Daeva))) It's so hard to stop, but it is so frustrating after having a long period without. Congrats on the 2.5 years by the way, that's awesome! I'm sorry that you are struggling again. Just remember that you were able to stop for 2.5 years and it is possible for you to do it again. Dust off those coping skills and try them again. You can do this. I find it hard to stop once I start. I'm on a better medication now that does seem to help some. Hang in there.