Hello Jonah: Since this is your first post here on PC... welcome to PsychCentral! In addition to the survivors of abuse forum there are forums, here on PC, related to the topics of cPTSD, depression & addictions. Here are links to these forums:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/complex-ptsd/

https://forums.psychcentral.com/depression/

https://forums.psychcentral.com/addictions/

And then here are links to 9 articles from PsychCentral's archives. The first is on cPTSD & narcissistic abuse. Then there are 4 on the subject of things you can do to manage depression. The remaining 4 offer suggestions for what to do when you feel lost:

Healing from Complex-PTSD in the Aftermath of Narcissistic Abuse | The Savvy Shrink

10 Things I Do Every Day to Beat Depression

https://psychcentral.com/blog/6-step...ng-depression/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/7-ways...al-depression/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/7-more...dium=popular17

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-you-feel-lost/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/feelin...g-opportunity/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/so-you...-never-expect/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/weigh...from-yourself/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.