Okay I just realized I didn't respond back to anyone. I did tell my T like suggested and he seemed concerned, he didn't want such a big buildup of that feeling before coming in maybe because it makes PTSD even worse. I don' t know. Last week he decided to keep it lighter, well it did get heavy though.

Yeah, Cyrano, it is like going in for a root canal, well what I think it would feel like, I haven't ever had one, but getting a back filling done is bad enough.

I am not doing well, I called to see if he had a sooner appointment this week before Thurs. but he doesn't .

I am so freaking depressed and full of anxiety. I couldn't do my speech today for class, and I will probably have to drop the class because he isn't allowing any make up speeches. This whole onset is messing me up big time. I am an A student and grades are important to me to get into grad school, but I just am struggling right now. I just hate this feeling.