I needed this place last night. I should've used it. But I didn't. I guess I didn't want anyone to "see" me like that. It isn't the right forum to talk about this but I kept having flashbacks and dissociated a lot. That's all I'll write about it for now.

More and more, these memories that I presumed to be my imagination are being proven right. I'm not sure I can handle that. I think I was fine living in sweet ignorance. If only life would let me ****ing stay there.

I can't keep doing this.