I hate having to face my parents abuse- and those memories and those issues (for me, a big part of recovery), and to be honest, it is still such a trigger for me I wonder if I ever will.... fully, even if I want to

I mean who doesn't want to recover from abuse? (that's not what I'm saying)

I'm saying I have 4 mental health diagnoses and chronic pain and no goals/ qualifications/ support

the future's hardly brite