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Originally Posted by raging vortex
I hate having to face my parents abuse- and those memories and those issues (for me, a big part of recovery), and to be honest, it is still such a trigger for me I wonder if I ever will.... fully, even if I want to
I mean who doesn't want to recover from abuse? (that's not what I'm saying)
I'm saying I have 4 mental health diagnoses and chronic pain and no goals/ qualifications/ support
the future's hardly brite
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I hear ya raging vortex. Half of my battle (and one of my therapy goals) is just acknowledging that there was abuse in the first place. I still dissociate when I have to think back on what happened! I'm one of those people in denial about what happened.
I'm worried that I've blocked something out from anytime before age 9. At age 9 is when I vivdly remember the depressive symptoms starting to appear and when the issues started.
Hmm, I know that feeling. Do you think that your chronic pain could be muscle armoring or physiological effects of trauma? I realize now that my chronic neck and shoulder pain is muscle armoring. I've been dealing with it since I was about eleven.