Hey everyone. I'm Ashlee.

I am 26 years old and experience severe GAD. I don't know what to say, I feel like I'm posting something that is pointless but I will start by saying I am taking Fluoxetine 20mg and I feel like I need to talk to my Dr about a higher dose because it works for minor triggers but for the big triggers does nothing. Today I experienced severe anxiety and ended up having to leave work and I am now even more anxious because I'm afraid I'll lose my job but, I literally threw up because of my anxiety and I just had to go home after that. I'm supposed to be seeing a therapist this Friday but I have no money to do so and due to no insurance I'm afraid of telling my Dr I cancelled my appointment because I don't want him to think I'm not trying but, I really am trying. I'm looking for online therapy and checked out Betterhelp but I can't afford that. I'm broke as crap and I think it's really unfair that people such as myself and many others who have mental illnesses can't get the help we need due to finances. Why can't some of this just be offered? I don't get it!

Along with GAD I also have a bad eating disorder (anorexia) I am terrified of food and have an obsession with eating nothing but fruit/veggies and few carbs and I have to constantly check my weight and check my stomach in the mirror (literally several times a day) I try and eat things that are high in fiber such as bananas so I go to the BR after eating and pass it through my system so that I'm not bloated, and I have to do exercises every day even if it's just walking around the kitchen table. I am driving myself insane and obviously this adds onto my anxiety or maybe it's my anxiety adding onto my ED?

I'm also a tad bit depressed because I am 26 and I live at home and don't make enough to move out. Others who are younger than me are buying houses,new cars, getting married and me? Well I work full time,come home and lounge with my dog and play video games and make sure I take my meds. I'm literally a mess...

I don't know what to do I feel like I'm crazy.