I've been on benzos a long time too. I tell myself I could just stop taking them, but I think I'm kidding myself. I was given them from my first hospitalization, which I will have to say was around 1998, 1999 and mostly (except pregnancy) have been on them since. My retiring pdoc would definitely have been old school about using benzos, though she was also the one who finally started me on the high dose Seroquel, which has helped a ton. She didn't want to up my dose to 4 mg Klonopin daily, until I admitted to her I was self-dosing 4, and she didn't want me to have withdrawals. Before I could have my next appointment with her, I was in the hospital getting surgery, then recovering at home. Now I'm seeing a new pdoc (well, he has been at that practice awhile, maybe as long as I was going there; he's younger, but IDK, maybe late 30s, early 40s. He seems to feel the Klonopin is the least of my problems right now, and I have to agree with him there. I'd love to quit them, but now is definitely a bad time to try.