She broke it off over messenger, "I can't be your friend anymore. My boyfriend found out."
The f-----? We were only friends, I thought. I did get flirty sometimes and so did she but I get flirty with everyone at some point, even guys as a joke, even though I have no intentions of ever sleeping with men nor attraction to men. She knew this going into the friendship and she seemed to enjoy it and even said she did. She sent the R-rated "pictures" unsolicited and I never did send those things back but sometimes did send PG-rated ones. I think sending d---pics is wrong. It shows disrespect IMO. Maybe being flirty is wrong too?
I know this is somehow related to my illnesses and conditions but mostly it's that I'm a horrible friend. I officially loathe myself again. I probably won't post here for a while because I'll probably be missing the point of that too.