I was at the appointment by myself. I didn't even tell my husband that night or any night until the night before I was hospitalized one year later, which was the next time I saw that psychiatrist. There was no coping necessary when I was first diagnosed. I didn't know what manic depression was at the time, and I didn't care. I thought the psychiatrist was full of it. He wanted to put me on a moodstabilizer, but I refused it. He gave me a pamphlet about bipolar disorder, but I threw it away. I was very hypomanic at the time. I didn't realize that until much later. I totally lacked insight back then.

What has been your most problematic bipolar symptom?