the thing I am afraid of most about getting better is,

what would I do with myself?

if I woke up tomorrow mental illness free, what the **** would I do with myself?

it's not like I've got any plans to fall back on or any qualifications, or indeed any family/ friend support, I've had mental health problems since I was 9- and my life's been built around that as it were.

I've barely had any experiences of people half my age... I would be so scared