I've just done a ****ing stupid thing

I organized a Christmas choir to come to my house and sing for me- but they couldn't come on the 25th, and they are coming on the 12th (or were coming)

thanks to my low mood, I 've just totally snapped at them and said they can't come because I " hate people in my home"

and now they are looking in to rebooking that date with someone else (the only one they could do).