I have all ready started to organize things myself to try and make the holidays.... a little bit special for me as obviously I'll be alone for them.

one of the things I thought about doing was organizing a Christmas choir to come to my door and sing me some carols, however out of the 4 I spoke to, 3 can't do it, and I've just ruined my chance with the 4th because of my low mood

they are going to rebook the date for someone else