I've calmed down since yesterday. My anxiety isn't bad at all right now.

Has anyone else ever woken up and just realized something about yourself? I do that a lot. This morning it's simple: I'm mediocre at best. Everything and anything I've ever put time into learning, I can never pass mediocrity. Not in sports, music or writing. Nothing I've ever done is something to be impressed by. Not a single thing has ever resulted in excellence, no matter how much I practice and how much time I put in it. So, if I were to die, how would I describe my myself in the end? Mediocre.