Today I got an e-mail from my T saying that she won´t continue seeing me. I e-mailed her earlier this week about how I felt scared that she was going to leave me and that I felt hurt about that she meant she wouldn´t call or try to reach me if I suddenly didn´t turn up.


I also mentioned that I reacted to that she last time said that one alternative was to continue seeing only my psychiatric nurse. (I´ve been very clear about that I see this psychiatric nurse only because to "qualify" for sick leave and that she isn´t a support for me.)

That was broadly what I said in that e-mail to her.


First she offered me another session saying it was perfectly fine to reschedule (because of my fear of being left) and I accepted the time she offered and said we will meet next week. This was Monday.

Now, Friday she sends me an e-mail and says she has spoken to her supervisor and that she can´t do anything more for me. That she wanted to prepare me that next session will be our last.

All she said to me about "all feelings and expressions are welcome" was of course just crap. There´s of course something she isn´t telling me as she firstly offered me a session next week, no talking about ending therapy. Then some days later she uses her supervisor as an excuse for ending it all together. Also, as she said next time is going to be our last and not offering me some more sessions to terminate after ten months of therapy tells me something is wrong.


I need support on this. I felt something was going on, somewhere deep down and I now know noone is to trust. Ever.