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My major life goal is to be able to retire within the next two years. I reach full retirement age in 2020, but can go on Medicare in 2019.
My hope is to be able to hang on until I can retire. I have fibro and chronic fatigue. Both are kicking my butt. Every day is an experience of pain and overwhelming exhaustion. Ain't no way to live.
My fear is what's going to happen to me physically as I continue to age. As you might guess from my comments about retirement/Medicare I are an old fart. I'm not at death's door, but it's approaching. I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of my body breaking down and more pain before death gets here.
Before anyone gets upset, I'm not thinking of killing myself. I'm not wanting to die, I'm just accepting that it's coming eventually.
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