Here Today,

It's really crappy that those of us who can evoke strong countertransference feelings in our therapists also tend to be the ones told how therapy is the only way we can heal. If we're not outright told that we're "untreatable", "manipulative", "difficult"...

I might be projecting my own stuff as I've a personality disorder and have heard of similar reactions from therapists with some friends of mine with DDNOS/DID and/or with personality disorders... The T couldn't handle certain parts/modes, especially angry part(s), the T couldn't manage their countertransference issues (all written about in clinician books for treating the spectrum of complex trauma from personality disorders to polyfragmented DID)...and if I remember your posts right what happened was similar...

I believe you.