I don't know if I had an official diagnosis when I was a kid or not. I imagine it would be depression and anxiety or something similar. Several other possibilities were thrown out there but nothing ever stuck.

I'm not sure I want to return to a doctor because all they do is just throw a bunch of medication at you. As long as I'm able to survive work/school and take care of myself for the most part, I'm not sure medication is necessary. And I pretty much have to switch doctors and insurance every year. And honestly, I don't know if I get insurance for the semester I'll have to sub (as I would be certified at the end of a fall semester and could only do long-term subbing for a semester) so I don't want to risk starting medication that I can't afford.

What would be more helpful really would be to find more understanding, love, acceptance etc. in real life. And I feel particularly vulnerable right now because I broke up with my ex about a month and a half ago and while he could show me some love, he could never really understand or fully accept me. Not like he wasn't willing to, he just couldn't.