All I have to say is be strong! Talk about how you are feeling with your doctor like you orginally planned. Don't wait to look for help until you're in desperate need of it. Also, there's absolutely NOTHING wrong with being a menatally ill teen. There's such a negative stigma surrounding mental illness and it's quite sickening. People that are mentally ill are NORMAL people that just have a harder time coping with everyday events then most people. I wish you luck Bella! <3