Thanks so much for writing about it and I am sorry about getting you to go into such an uncomfortable place within yourself. I realized after asking you to say more that it may not be a very good idea to stir up those things. So it was aggression that the T(s) and others rejected? I really don't think that you failed therapy or was not able to pick a T that would be suitable for you, I think it's more that therapy is just not useful for many people, no matter how much of it we do or even how good the T is (whatever that means). It wasn't useful for me either and I wasn't even rejected. I hate, for example, how my first T always talks about therapy as some kind of holy grail for all mental health issues, I don't even believe that someone practicing for >30 years can really believe that, I am 100% sure that all of them have many failures. Mine also says all over the internet that he is special because he can take aggression from clients and, in fact, claims working with aggression as the center of his therapeutic universe (and he is a psychoanalyst on top). He was most definitely not able to take criticism well from me and became very nasty himself, in ways that I actually found shocking. Maybe there are a few rare Ts who can handle literally everything a client can say to them, but I really believe that taking intense, persistent anger and aggression well is more an exception than anything else, from anyone, even Ts with all the training and experience. I also think that probably many Ts have problems with anger themselves that they project onto their clients in many different, often masked forms. I really don't think it's your fault or failure in any way.