I wish I was dead. I wish I would have a quick heart attack or something. There is nothing but good things going on in my life and I should be happy but I am down...spiralling out of control.

I don't have any close friends anymore to call. My husband is very supportive but I just want to be left alone. I don't know what to do but just numb out on the couch.

I am sober too and have been for 4 months. I'm taking my mds. What is wrong with me. I thought getting it out might help to write it out but I don't care if I ever feel any better if you know what I mean.