I feel so ill right now I'm on the verge of crying. I can't do much of anything beyond staying home in bed. I had to go to my therapist. Then I had to drive 30 mins to my pharmacy. I thought it was closing at 4 pm. I was originally on track to get there by 3:50 pm, but got stuck behind a school bus going 20 mph for a few miles, stopping all of the time. I got there after 4 pm, and luckily they were still open. Then I went to get my eyebrows done for the first time in like six months. I was sweating at that point, trying to dry my forehead. It was awful! I only scheduled that because lately I've felt so downtrodden looking. The lady was nice, though.

Then I went to the grocery store within walking distance to buy a few things, including foods I can eat without chewing. My teeth hurt so much I can't chew on anything. I tried to eat a grape tomato and experienced so much agony that I almost screamed out loud. I called my dentist, but the office was already closed. The cashier at the store barked at the woman in front of me, and then as she handled my groceries it was like she was living in a pissed off world. That's all I needed to see today. Then a workmate asked how she was doing and she said she was never returning.

My psychiatrist called me back yesterday afternoon and said he doubted my recent sick feelings were Ativan withdrawals. Frankly, I'm going to go back on my old dose after two weeks off it. I was desperate to get to the pharmacy because I was out of Klonopin. I was thinking if I didn't take that either that I might really suffer even more. Thank goodness I got it in the end.

I got home and could barely put away the groceries.

If this ill feeling continues through Sunday, I'm going to call both my dentist and general practitioner for appointments. I see my psychiatrist next Wednesday. I might need to cancel my haircut, but I'd rather not if I can help it.