I am going to go shopping sometime at the beginning of this week and look for the side obsession and see if I can buy one. Of course it all depends if they have them and if I can afford one, but I have to get the nervousness under control anyway in preparation. Because if I get so nervous and ill that I can't even go into the shops then it will be a waste of time.

I'm not even sure if this is even the right thread to write about this.