Fred was tired because he didn't sleep or rest enough. NOT because I tried to jump his bones at night. I worked a full time physically demanding job too!
If he rested some nights, he would have had energy for some gym sessions. But even if we stayed in he would watch tv till twelve or one o'clock and he ALWAYS needed the tv on until he fell asleep.
And of course we drank every single weekend. And we were on the move non -stop at weekend. He didn't want to chill out. I had to find things for him to watch at the weekend if we had a whole spare half hour, like MMA on the BT vision box. Otherwise he would complain he was sick fed up of this life. Our life. I wasn't happy either and I voiced it so I didn't blame him.
He was inscrutable. I didn't know what to do. He was not ready to settle down either maybe. He sang Aloe Blac I need dollars for months and months. Welcome to the real world. We were on the property ladder. It was not supposed to be easy. We were going to own our own house. A house not just a flat. We were not messing about. I thought this was the one.
I kept saying speak to your old pals on Facebook. Join the football team. I brought up the football team. Maybe you can join a better one if you join that one first if you get your foot in the door. But the same response. No, why? they are shyte, it would just be embarrassing.
I told him to go a jog when he was complaining about being stuck inside on a nice night. And I didn't think he would go. But he was gone about 15 minutes after sprinting.
If he said I am going to meet my work pal at the red phone box pub, I would have been fine possibly delighted that he was taking initiative, even if it was day time. I couldn't keep making suggestions. Maybe he didn't go because he wanted to avoid his old posse as some of them were regulars there. They made fun of me to him when we first started dating.
He missed his group of friends. "I burned the bridges" it was his phrase. He said it all the time. I can't. I burned all my bridges. I didn't ask you to. I didn't expect you to.
We both needed to meet new people. And splitting up was the only way to do it. He said that he thought we were doing ok. We had been arguing less. It was a lull. A calm before the storm.