I know that I shouldn’t care at all about him at this point, but I do. I want to think at one time he really did care about me and that he didn’t just use me. He helped me get back in school and bought my house. Then on the other hand I can see that as another means of control or maybe he did it because he felt guilty about something or maybe at that time he did love me and his feelings really have just changed. I still worry about him. His current girlfriend, who is perfect and can do no wrong, is only 4 years younger and bc of the our big age difference, she called him my sugar daddy. I never thought about our relationship in that way. When I looked at him, I saw the man I loved, never seeing the age gap or anything like that. He tells me I pushed him away and it’s my fault he wants nothing to do with me, he tried to remain friends. Maybe I did. I think after everything and the way he initially handled everything, I wanted him to do what he said. He promises to be there for me and to never leave me. We would always be friends. I’m stupid for believing him aren’t I?