All the women who have told me looks don't matter seem to not live up to that statement when push comes to shove and THEY choose someone. I'm sorry, I don't buy the "looks don't matter" notion and never will. It's just one of many conditioned denials which confort us. Saudade, I can't tell you enough how good it is to hear this kind of sincere (unedited) expression. Another problem is that I'll end up in the poor house if the only way I can have sexual contact is to pay for it. I don't know. At this point in my life, maybe it's just as well I don't know what it's like. With all my anxiety, I'd probably be so bad at the whole sex/love thing anyway.