Have you ever tried therapy that involves any kind of creative exercise, HT? Any form of artistic expression? For example, people here often mention sand trays or writing poems. For me, creative work is where I can most easily and effectively explore and act out disturbing emotions. Getting very emotional never comes easily for me in the company of other people unless I know them very well and they are willing to communicate that way also. But channeling strong emotions and irrational, spontaneous feelings and impulses into creative work is something that I do easily given that the medium if right for me. And then I love to discuss the process/result with people who have an interest and ability to think in abstract ways and use/interpret symbolic meaning.

I think any creative activity provides ample room for mental projections, but without creating direct interpersonal drama, then the projected drama can be discussed cognitively. I don't think it's the best way to address interpersonal issues and exercise more effective communication, but can be very helpful to get in touch with emotions and impulses that are not acceptable socially. Similarly to what the term sublimation implies, which I also use a lot in my life, for example we can say my entire career is that (I think it's very similar for many therapists when they choose that career). And I can still look at the psychological forces that motivate these things, either by myself or with someone else who is interested in discussing, without actually targeting someone else with it directly.

I can actually apply the interventions during childbirth analogy in the context of therapy even though I never had a child and know very little about that industry. I was the target of unnecessary interventions and T reactions though while my true issues remained neglected and kinda ignored by the T. For example, that whole thing about the interpersonal conflicts - once that happened, it seemed like the T could not focus on anything else. I refused to continue with him in part because that stuff had nothing to do with my problems, it only distracted from them and created new frustrations. It only served the T, because that's how he likes to work with clients. Was completely unnecessary for me so I left. He predicted that I would run into the same kind of conflict with another T or other people because I never "worked it out" with him. Never happened. It really was his issue, not mine. I am thinking about this again also in relation to your story, how people in your childhood rejected certain aspects of you and then the T did the same. And now you think it's your grand evil issue! I don't know... why I originally asked what exactly happened. I may be very wrong but just have a feeling that those people in your life blew it way out of proportion and you may be left with a sense that you are flawed and incapable of managing social relations well. I am not sure who is incapable really... maybe you are more just unmotivated?