I start to panic about holidays (Thanksgiving and Christmas) months before they happen. I no longer have that "little kid anticipation" or the joy and peace holidays are supposed to bring. Last year, I decided to "take back" the holidays. Since there is no birth family, I make my own family. I do have my husband and grown kids, but I now try to include people that otherwise would have no one , along with some friends. It really helped last year and I intend to try to expand it this year.