Thank you WC for posting. I was hoping to hear from you. I am sorry you have chronic pain. Often times these are called syndromes rather than diseases because they are so poorly understood, and that experience is so isolating too.

If I go into the cancer centre I am followed by security. If I go out into my lawn then one of my nosy neighbors will text me asking if I am feeling ok. She is the main one who has been calling the police about me over the years. Every day the police aren't banging my door down, like they did last year, I am grateful for that. So I stay mostly indoors and away from other people because i am afraid of them. I am not unhappy to be alive but have no pleasure in life except for my son,

Sorry for the rant. It's a grey cloudy day and we have had snow, believe it or not. Maybe that is contributing to my down mood.

Thanks for hearing me out. I had a bad experience on one of the threads on pc where someone was writing about how they wished they had cancer. When you see the suffering people go through it isn't something to wish for. It seemed to me to be totally trivializing what it is like to have a deadly cancer.

Also some people get alot of attention on pc and others not so much. That's human nature and not much to be done about it.