I ran this morning, but not as far as I have been running lately. I feel like I should have run more. I'm mad at myself about it.
Low numbers on the scale made the ED happy. I need to just throw out the damn scale...It is so stupid to tie your self-worth some random number that pops up in the morning. If it's lower or the same as yesterday, I feel good. If it's higher, I hate myself. I tend to force myself to run longer distances.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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