It definitely is for me. I have so much guilt over not being dx for 30 years and the anger I have spewed at my husband and kids when in a hypo/manic phase. I don't do it when stable or depressed so it's one of the things I look for in monitoring moods.

I know your financial situation is dire so this may not even help and you may already be aware of it. But, whatever your bill ends up being most hospitals, at least in Texas, will allow you to set up a payment plan. We are doing that now for my last Crohn's episode. If you've never done it call the business office and let them know how much you can pay per month and the date you can pay by each month.