Just wanted to say this because I have complained on here about him. We did hit rock bottom but things are better now.

I was so confused after my attempt that I imagined the worst things about him to the point of delusion. I was in fight or flight mode. Neither of us are perfect but I do enjoy being with him. He tries to make me feel needed and beautiful. He treats me better than he did when we were at our low point. Sometimes the answer isn't leaving even when everyone in your life says it is....