Hi ajisalone. I think a lot of what you described can be attributed to anxieties of various kinds, including some of the social aspects you mentioned. You're not stupid or a nutcase believe me, but I do understand why you'd think that, as anxiety has followed me through my whole life. But that need not be the case with you if you can see a doctor, approach your problems from various angles and just put energy into changing the way your mind behaves. Good things will start to happen for you, I'm quite certain, especially since you're addressing it at a young age. Good on you, ajisalone.