porn is not about dancing and music. its about degrading images of women and showing that theyre less than human. that is not art. what happens if you get HIV? what happens when you meet a decent guy and have to explain that youre a porn star? Any guy that's going to want a porn star girlfriend, is not going to be one that you want to be with, I'm guessing.

I feel like, if you truly wanted this, you wouldn't hav e come here. You knew what others' reactions would be and you came here to hear the opposite of what you want. I think you said all that to get people to talk you out of it because you know, deep down, it's not rational or safe or anything else good. Its hard, but you can't just go changing stuff about yourself. I wish I were 5'3'' and 105 lbs but that just wont happen. What happens after you get your boobs done? Its addicting, you know. what else will you want to change? Women on t.v. screens aren't natural. Its not normal too be 5'10'' and weight 115 lbs. America's Next Top model - those girls are freaks. No one is supposed to look like that.

You are assuming that your unhappiness comes from what you look like. Then how do you explain all the fat people of the world who love the way they look? It doesn't come from you being ugly or fat or having saggy breasts. Its from your self worth and sefl esteem. So you change your body thinking that will solve problems but it wont. How happy you are with yourself comes from how you feel about yourself within, not from the outside. And if you don't like yourself as you are now, youre not going to like yourself after a boob job. In fact, you might dislike yourself for going through it. I read an article once about women who commit suicide after their boob job. Its a staggering number of women who feel so worthless afterwards because 1)they thought it would solve everything, and it doesn't and 2) they feel bad for having done it to themselves and wish they could take it back. If I find the link Ill post it. Youre looking for a superficial fix to your self loathing problem and sex is just a substitute. then when you realize that the guys in film with you don't really want you, they were just putting on an act... where does that leave you? I think you would be much better off finding a normal guy who doesn't think about all that crap. I know it seems like most of them are jerks, but there are still some good ones out there.

another point - once you fix all these things about yourself... what kind of people are you expecting to attract? people who wouldnt talk to you now, but would once you "fixed" your face and boobs... aren't the kind of people you want to be around.