luvyrslf,
i am not still in school. I graduated years ago, 2004 from grad school with an M.S in Cell & Molecular Biology. Sometimes your post sounds like you know this and other times not, but I do thank you for your thoughtful response. I am been in the mental help system since around 2000, nearly 18 year (except for right before & during my pregnancy, I did not take meds until the very end of the 3rd trimester. The OB gave me Zoloft, I think. Back then, it was still considered safe for pregnancy and breastfeeding. I don't believe they feel that way now, but I don't know; it was 10 years ago.

I do need to thoroughly express what find what th makes me that angry when I see my therapist again. Because the anger tends to be awful for an annoying situation that is not a super big deal. Such as being behind a person in a checkout line insisting dividing their groceries into 2 orders and a price check, coupon/newspaper price comparison with several other stores in the area with
newspaper ads (and they will have a decent sized load) and writing out checks for both orders. This is an annoying situation for me as as it takes me much longer to check out, but I already have most of my groceries on the conveyer belt and people behind me waiting to check out. And if this happens in an express lane, just forget it for me. I am sure to have a fit.. Then, I will just lose it. It is an aggravating situation, but there is no reason to go ballistic over it.