IMO, my condition and diagnosis has been a blessing. Now, I can work at being a better person. I've been "robbed" of my friends, but they weren't worth keeping anyway. I miss being full BP and the edge it gave me, but I adjusted. I picked up some cool hobbies that I never would have done unless my p-doc told me I was BP. I climb mountain, play guitar, and I took up building models after a 35 year break. I take back what BP has taken from me.