Like crap [emoji90], I got broken up sleep this morning and listened to someone repeatedly slam their door. I think they did it for gusto. I couldn’t make it out of bed to go tell them off so I put on some music and went back to sleep. I was in tonnes of pain and still am I went to the emergency room last night. The doctor said I needed to stretch a muscle out and I would get better sleep. I mean I tried some of the exercises and I was in more pain. I have scoliosis and arthritis in the last 5 vertebrae of my spine. I am in constant pain- touch anywhere on my spine I am intense pain. I hurt too much right now to get out of bed. This place echoes and their is constant noise if people are yelling and screaming or slamming doors. It’s 24hours of non stop noise all the time.

I feel like I am in a psych ward in my apartment building. People constantly telling others they want to do a,b,c to someone or something then the cops come and drag them away and they are back several hours later. Then the staff that’s on all the time don’t care about their jobs, and treat us like we are children or those not suppose to be on client files reading them. Right now I am listening to someone whose an elephant above me shaking the whole room my light is swaying back and forth that started at 4am.

I am annoyed, ticked off and of all things beyond mad. I was reaching out for help yesterday and my worker in the building was saying something like “we can make you a cleaning list..” because I said I am so depressed I cannot even do my laundry, have a shower, clean my dishes, sweep the floor, and clean my bathroom. I mean he says that above like I am lazy or something I need someone to listen to me and that by reaching out for help he continues to say other things that trigger me. He doesn’t get it and shouldn’t be working here.