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bchlyn said:
sometimes i wonder what would happen if i just stopped fighting it all and stopped trying to get things under control... could it be any worse then it is?

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=( Hon, i know... i wonder the same thing... but i think now we're in a process that can't be reversed. there's no going back to blissful ignorance.
Am glad you have t tonight!!! You made it through =)
Hugs to you!!!! lots!!!!!!!!

I had t last night - the aftermath is always the worst for me... always want to quit right after - cry and say i'm never going back. It's not that i don't like her or anything - she just upsets the whole system and i feel like i'm going to fall apart and there's no putting back the pieces. on the upside (if i can call it that), i'm too depressed to cut. I even picked up the box with the exacto and moved it like it was just a box - not something that often lures me to it... lures me into dnager just by catching my eye.