So yesterday I went shopping again, the main reason to look for the "side obsession" and hopefully buy one. I went around loads of different shops again, and again I couldn't find any. However I didn't feel nervous at all, in fact I felt a lot more disappointed and frustrated, and also a bit confused because I have seen these before.

There was one shop in particular that I had convinced myself would have them, or at least something similar but that was probably the most disappointing shop.

So now I'm wondering if I ever do find any, will I be able to buy one. I obviously have improved because I wasn't nervous just going into shops. But then there was none. I have no idea what would happen if I saw them, I might get nervous then. And I guess I'll never know until I find some, and that is obviously out of my control, so frustrating!